Silence....

I just realised it is more than 2 years i haven't updated my blog...something is definately wrong wif me....oh yeah..then again...i was busy recovering from my slip disc...hehehehehe tune in...will update my blog soon wif more exciting news...

Btw, i have a new look now....

Wat a dinner...

Today i experienced a day, how people can be such bullies...


We (Me, ZigZag,Mr & Mrs Cute Couple) went to Subang for dinner. There was a parking space, we put the signal and waited till the car moved out from the parking space.


We were in small car, Satria., fyi... Suddenly from no where appeared a big 4 wheel drive, i have no idea of the model and make as i have no intentions to look at the pathetic driver's face.


He was with his family- wife and daughter. He signal the opposite direction and head light towards us. Boy, he was messing with the wrong person...especially when we are hungry....


Eventually, Mr Cute, wind down the window and asked wat is his issue....he kept saying, that is his parking spot and he spotted first....we try reasoning but the man seems not satisfied....out of tired of answering to this creature, we juz ignored and got out of the car and headed to the restaurant.




Suprisingly, the shop was over crowded and we lost interest in the shop..... We juz got back in the car and headed to another place called Asia Cafe.....


Wow....i was so mesmerised by the numbers of the shop....so many varieties...from malaysian to mediterranian ..to iranian.....i was too confused to order wat...so i and mrs cute decided we keep it low..and finally settled down for ikan bakar, lobak, fish & chicken salad platter and finally with french toast.....


not filling but the feeling was full...hahahahaha


definately i will go back to the place again......my mom will definately love the ikan bakar...yummy.....


have to hit the sack now...coz my eyes are heavy......good nitez people...i hardly have time to update my blog....but i will try as my new year resolution to update my blog....

'If you enjoy what you do, you will never work another day in your life' - Confucius

I used to think, how true can the above phrase be? Not until i landed on something i finally enjoyed after more than 10 years of working experience.

Not that the all my previous job didnt make happy or wat..but it all had something as yeast factor to boost my work. My first job was at a legal firm, and since young i wanted to be a lawyer...but my parents wanted me to do IT back then, so when i landed a job as a support staff at a legal firm, i was thrilled. The interest was there until i was forced to dust books, which made me think the only reason i am there is to do a basic housekeeping job and not something related to my studies. So i switched to another job, which is a Dotcom company.

Its very true, a dotcom company can bloom like mushroom, rapidly but die fast...same goes to this company but i learned a lot while i was here, the pushing factor was the $$$, good enough for me to continue my part time degree. But i also learned a lot of troubleshooting, MIS management and of course,learn how does a helpdesk, ICT operation works. I joined the company as one of the pioneer staff and my line manager was a very supportive lady who constantly teached me on how to suit ourselves at work. Besides $$, it would be the presence of my manager that made me stay there longer. Not until the economy crisis hit, there were retrenchment but though i was not involved but the economy was so bad and the job scope was so dull that i was loosing all my technical skill sharpness. It came to a point, there was nothing to be done daily. We only had to go to office, sit, chat, surf d net and then leave back home. Many would agree, it would be a dream job becoz we do get the pay at the end of the month, but some how being young..i felt i needed more room to learn. I was with this company which i share most of my career memories, for almost 3 1/2 years.

Next, moving on i went to a bigger company, a private limited company, which was in the market for expansion. Here i met a different set of people,characters as the company is a very large organisation. I learned a lot on different culture, character and work ethics from this company. The motive behind working for this company was the location. It was situated at the middle of the city amenities. However, short lived happiness, this company also had a downfall and had to restructure. I had no choice but to find a new place to survive. I joined this NGO, which only comprising 4 staffs, a very small organisation but more things to be done and more productive based. However,we lost the funding and we had to move.

I came to a point, am i a JINX to all the companies i step in too? I was very worried and concerned, not a single place i had an oppurtunity to actually shine and contribute the knowledge i have gained and carried with me all this 10 years. I almost lost hope until i joined the satelite pay tv. It was a golden oppurtunity for me to contribute, however at this place, when i finally settling in and comfortable, a horror striked me, bad office politics. Since i am not good in licking people's shoe or fanning (is there such word in d dictionary)?, i didnt make it..i was retrenched, when i was hospitalised. Later only i found out, i was not even in d retrenchment list but due to favouritsm, i lost d battle...

Anyway, to cut d long story short...d place i am currently attached too...i am blessed..so far no jinx from me. I have a very understanding line manager who understand my needs as a staff, who can put himself in my shoe at times and support me. Not to mention the business/project managers, who do understand my health conditions and are always there to back me up.Of coz, bout the working colleagues, there are no exceptions, also have been there. Even though i am not well but i am happy to work at odd hours or contribute as much as i can becoz i enjoy wat i am doing...not only becoz of the people, environment but also the job itself, all packaged in one box, specially wrapped and send to me,by someone above.

GOD has finally answered my prayers,slowly but effectively, as my journey all this while was to mould and tweak me into a better person to handle and be flexible on everything thrown at me.....i am no longer a JINX..

Praise the LORD, Amen....

How a slip disc changed my view!

Its been some time i havent update my blog due to my illness.

This year has not been a good fruitful year to me.BUT its has made me more WISER and grow in FAITH

It all started in March, with my first minor injury,which cause my spinal cord to inflame. I was diagonosed as slip disc at L4/L5. The specialist at a leading medical centre near my town, suggests that i go for either conservative treatment or for a surgery. However, the surgery would be a 50/50 chance of paralysing and it would be risky and should be kept as last resort. Thus, we went on for the conservative treatment. However, the specialist informed that i would not be able to carry on a normal lifestyle. I should not bend, should not carry heavy things, should not walk too long, sit too long...and list goes on..but the most painful bitter statement was ability to carry a child in the womb ( i am not fit to be pregnant). This is a complete shocker as it has not even been a year after my wedding. There goes our chance to have our offsprings.

I recovered completely within 3 months, however, i lost my job at the cable tv station as result of economic slowdown and since i was still on medical leave, i was forced to leave a.k.a retrenchement. The truth came to me towards later stage that i was not even schedule for the retrenchement but was chosen due to office dirty politics. Well i was first disturbed and upset over it, as justice was not served and this was totally not fair to me. I have worked hard and regardless the manpower shortage period, i have give my soul, time and even have put my relationship in jeopardy for the dedication and love i had for the job. This was really depressing to me but due to my injury..i felt more depressed for my injury rather than my job loss.

Upon recovering, i have started on my job hunt and thank god i have a very supportive spouse and family to back me up, financially, emotionally and physically for this. After a series of job turn down, i finally landed a job which i never thought will change my life. I will explain bout the job in my next post as this post is purely on my slip disc.

I was happy with my current job, until one fine day, another minor incident, caused my slip disc pain to surface. This time it was more painful than before as i am not even able to sit. Previously, i couldnt walk but i could sit and lie down, but this time, it was more painful as i cant even sit or stand or lie down, all i could do was lie on my back side ways.It was a horrifying nitemare to me till to day as i think bout it.

I was re-admitted again in hospital, the same medical centre, this time longer than expected. The doctor still suggests for conservative management, rather than surgery. He even suggested to go on alternative treatment. Thank God, HE have spoken to me through various people to indicate not to opt for operation.

My line manager was very supportive and so was my business manager and project manager. They have advised me to go for alternative treatment. ZigZag's close friend recommended a famous therapeutic at Seremban, Oakland Industrial area. I went to him, Chan Kam Weng alternative treatment.

First look at my MRI scan, he told me it will take time to recover but the bright side is, i will be able to go back to my lifestyle once i have fully recovered. Having said that, i started my treatment. Initially he only applied an oil and patch, to let the inflammation subside. He also told me to stop the modern medicines as it is made of painkillers and not good for the kidneys. I went to him religiously, 3 times a week (though his treatment was pricey), i can see positive results. Within a month, i was able to sit and sleep peacefully at night. I decided to return to work. Only manage to go to work for the first 2 weeks, the old pain came shooting down,even worst, the following week. When i met Mr Chan, he told me it was due to overstrainin and i am not suppose to over strain the muscles.

I never once thought, alternative treatment was good and have lasting results but my experience have thought me that never underestimate or judge without giving a shot of trying. I have been going for treatment and serious of painful moments until i was recovering. One thing, you have to be"pantang" when you are on alternative treatment. You are not suppose to consume anything made of coconut, cooling for the body- like barly or soya been, anything sour- curries,mango and most importantly no tea, any sorts of tea. Its been more than 4 month now i havent touched all these things, and i do feel better each day. Now i have recovered so much that i can sit, walk and normal chores except bending or squating. According to Mr Chan, once i am able to squat or bend, then i am fully recovered. To make my muscles strong, Mr Chan have given me herbs to boil and drink, it is so bitter that you can cough it out or vomit it, but the outcome is good, after a day of consuming the drink, you can see the changes in the muscles. More stronger and less pain. I am still due one more pack to drink.

Hopefully i will be able to recover and get back to my life soon. Its been month, i have not gone out, see the world and etc etc...but most importantly, my oppurtunity to became a mother, perhaps might happen as Mr Chan told me there is a bright future if i am fully recovered to carry a child. But all this will take time, effort and most importantly good rest.

Also, the most important person i should mention here is GOD. Without HIM, all these are not possible and more over, HE has better plans for me. HE is the Divine Physician who is strengthening me day by day.

Praise the LORD!!!! AMEN

It is time to reflect..LENT Season

This lent season i have so many incidents to ponder and reflect on...

First lesson learned:
1. Never take an injury lightly.
On Friday, d 13th , a fine day to work, my car driver seat has jammed. With no options left, i had to jump into the passenger seat and get out as it was getting late to work....
Juz felt slight pain at d left butt bt i brushed it aside...then saturday came..the pain became more intense but i brushed it off again as minor musscle pain...then till Tuesday...i felt i couldnt move my left leg, hence after work..i went to the normal GP to get a jab...however..on Wednesday...i could hardly move..and i was rushed to Thursday at Sunway Medical Centre where i was admitted for 1 week...for slip disc at the left limb....till to date..i cud hardly walk and bed riden....hopefully i will be able to walk soon wif God's grace..

2.Never take your job for granted


3. Heatlh is wealth
Your biggest assest in this earth is your health and when your health is at risk, your emo, phsyical and all ur inner strength will be shattered...and also can ruin your relationship with other people, be it your spouse,family or frens......

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to Everyone.....

"Cheers to a New Year and another chance for us to get it right."
-Oprah Winfrey-

This year i have decided that i shall not have a resolution because i never kept them fulfilled. However, i have decided that i shall throw the "old" me and transform myself into something else....i mean a human of coz bt into some one else tat no one will assume.......well...so i dont know whether it will count as a resolution or a revolution....it is up to the person to configure it....

For starters....i started my new year wif $$$.....gambling of coz...hehehehehhe....so i guess i will playing wif numbers all year long........perhaps..how to save $$, buy a house, do some enhancement to my car, get full medical check up ..etc etc...well the list goes on.....

This year i am feeling very different than all these years....y? some may ask....well i myself dont have answer for this question.......bt i reli do....i dont seem to think or worry bout anything these days....bt hv kept an open mind for everything......watever that comes in...i still receive it yet i dont knw if it is for good or for bad....

Well...lets leave the rest to know wat is happenin.....

For the change of myself...i will write and update my blog...at least then..readers can tell me..if i have transformed or not.....

I want to thank all the special people who touched my life with their love, care, encourage and made my life more meaningful.Thank you for your contribution to my Life.May God continue to give you abundant Happinessin the Coming New Year and always !Best Wished for 2009 ! Happy New Year

Journey to "Tri Hita Karana" - Bali " D Paradise Island"-n Epilogue

"Tri Hita Karana" or a tripartite concept that include the spiritual relationship between human and God, and their environment- This is wat summarises Bali- The Paradise Island. The island really live up to its name. I am still mesmerised by the ancient temple of Tanah Lot which i will elaborate in detail wif pictures soon.

I learned that Denpasar where the Airport is located is the capital for Bali.

Co-incidently it was Visit Indonesia year 2008 so the place was full of tourists...most of them are from Australia and other Europians. This has lead to an expensive cost of living in Bali whereby the price or costs of food, clothes, lodge is expensive or almost the same as Malaysia- There goes the Rupiahs...

One thing i liked wat i saw was their humility to others and of course to God. Everywhere you go you can see a small basket filled wth rice and flowers or two. These offerings are known as "canang sari" that the Balinese offer to their Gods three times a day.

I was confused as to why are these baskets for and why do they place these Canang Sari on the sidewalks, at the corner of the swimming pool, shops, temples and almost everywhere...so i began to do some research on my own (as i am a local CSI) since i was so curious.....and this is wat i manage to dig out......

Offering made of palm leaf, flowers and foodstuffs are an art form associated with every ritual occasion in Bali. The Balinese belief in the forces of the invisible world dictates that offerings be created with a spirit of thankfulness and loving attention to detail. The Balinese seem never to tire of producing these colorful and highly symbolic, ephemeral creations for every ritual, from the simplest daily household offering to the gods, demons, and ancestors to massive ceremonies such as Panca Wali Krama held at Pura Besakih to purify and bring blessings upon the entire world.

Apparently its a basic ritual of you thanksgiving and repaying to Gods for all the things which has been given to you. It is understood that is is a sharing that is not based upon fear but on gratitude to the richness of life, regardless material items or emotional needs.These offerings soothes or pacifies the spirits and brings prosperity and good health to the family.

Then there are the different temples. The temple dedicated to origin is the pura puseh which faces the mountains. The village temple can be found in the centre and it is called pura desa. The pura dalem is aligned with the sea and dedicated to the dead.

Even in cooking, the search for harmony is the underlying ideology and a balance between the sweet, sour, salty and bitter is the aspiration of every cook. They have offering before and after cook, you can see from the waiters to all the kitchen staffs have several pieces of rice on their forehead.. These offerings are called "Banten Saiban".

Banten saiban or jotan is a daily offering that is offered everyday after cooking or before eating. It is very simple consisting of a pinch of rice with other food like vegetable or fish or meat, on a small piece of banana leaf/other leaf. Due to its everyday usage so it is grouped into “Nitya Yadnya”. Actually what is offered; rice and its companion food like vegetable and meat that are cooked; that means pinch of rice is just the sample, therefore Banten Saiban is also called “Yadnya Sesa”, that means offering is a priority.

Banten Saiban is offered to:
1.
God / Gods, it has a philosophy to thank God for His blessing.
2.
Ancestors before ‘Memukur’ ceremony are done, with the aim to ask for their protection.
3.
Panca Maha Bhuta for not disturbing us.

There is more than this i have learned and experienced but it is unexplainable in words as you need to sense it. However, i wil try to pen down as much i can to elaborate on my beautiful experience in Bali which i will treasure for the rest of my life...

More to come....