I used to think, how true can the above phrase be? Not until i landed on something i finally enjoyed after more than 10 years of working experience.
Not that the all my previous job didnt make happy or wat..but it all had something as yeast factor to boost my work. My first job was at a legal firm, and since young i wanted to be a lawyer...but my parents wanted me to do IT back then, so when i landed a job as a support staff at a legal firm, i was thrilled. The interest was there until i was forced to dust books, which made me think the only reason i am there is to do a basic housekeeping job and not something related to my studies. So i switched to another job, which is a Dotcom company.
Its very true, a dotcom company can bloom like mushroom, rapidly but die fast...same goes to this company but i learned a lot while i was here, the pushing factor was the $$$, good enough for me to continue my part time degree. But i also learned a lot of troubleshooting, MIS management and of course,learn how does a helpdesk, ICT operation works. I joined the company as one of the pioneer staff and my line manager was a very supportive lady who constantly teached me on how to suit ourselves at work. Besides $$, it would be the presence of my manager that made me stay there longer. Not until the economy crisis hit, there were retrenchment but though i was not involved but the economy was so bad and the job scope was so dull that i was loosing all my technical skill sharpness. It came to a point, there was nothing to be done daily. We only had to go to office, sit, chat, surf d net and then leave back home. Many would agree, it would be a dream job becoz we do get the pay at the end of the month, but some how being young..i felt i needed more room to learn. I was with this company which i share most of my career memories, for almost 3 1/2 years.
Next, moving on i went to a bigger company, a private limited company, which was in the market for expansion. Here i met a different set of people,characters as the company is a very large organisation. I learned a lot on different culture, character and work ethics from this company. The motive behind working for this company was the location. It was situated at the middle of the city amenities. However, short lived happiness, this company also had a downfall and had to restructure. I had no choice but to find a new place to survive. I joined this NGO, which only comprising 4 staffs, a very small organisation but more things to be done and more productive based. However,we lost the funding and we had to move.
I came to a point, am i a JINX to all the companies i step in too? I was very worried and concerned, not a single place i had an oppurtunity to actually shine and contribute the knowledge i have gained and carried with me all this 10 years. I almost lost hope until i joined the satelite pay tv. It was a golden oppurtunity for me to contribute, however at this place, when i finally settling in and comfortable, a horror striked me, bad office politics. Since i am not good in licking people's shoe or fanning (is there such word in d dictionary)?, i didnt make it..i was retrenched, when i was hospitalised. Later only i found out, i was not even in d retrenchment list but due to favouritsm, i lost d battle...
Anyway, to cut d long story short...d place i am currently attached too...i am blessed..so far no jinx from me. I have a very understanding line manager who understand my needs as a staff, who can put himself in my shoe at times and support me. Not to mention the business/project managers, who do understand my health conditions and are always there to back me up.Of coz, bout the working colleagues, there are no exceptions, also have been there. Even though i am not well but i am happy to work at odd hours or contribute as much as i can becoz i enjoy wat i am doing...not only becoz of the people, environment but also the job itself, all packaged in one box, specially wrapped and send to me,by someone above.
GOD has finally answered my prayers,slowly but effectively, as my journey all this while was to mould and tweak me into a better person to handle and be flexible on everything thrown at me.....i am no longer a JINX..
Praise the LORD, Amen....
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
How a slip disc changed my view!
Its been some time i havent update my blog due to my illness.
This year has not been a good fruitful year to me.BUT its has made me more WISER and grow in FAITH
It all started in March, with my first minor injury,which cause my spinal cord to inflame. I was diagonosed as slip disc at L4/L5. The specialist at a leading medical centre near my town, suggests that i go for either conservative treatment or for a surgery. However, the surgery would be a 50/50 chance of paralysing and it would be risky and should be kept as last resort. Thus, we went on for the conservative treatment. However, the specialist informed that i would not be able to carry on a normal lifestyle. I should not bend, should not carry heavy things, should not walk too long, sit too long...and list goes on..but the most painful bitter statement was ability to carry a child in the womb ( i am not fit to be pregnant). This is a complete shocker as it has not even been a year after my wedding. There goes our chance to have our offsprings.
I recovered completely within 3 months, however, i lost my job at the cable tv station as result of economic slowdown and since i was still on medical leave, i was forced to leave a.k.a retrenchement. The truth came to me towards later stage that i was not even schedule for the retrenchement but was chosen due to office dirty politics. Well i was first disturbed and upset over it, as justice was not served and this was totally not fair to me. I have worked hard and regardless the manpower shortage period, i have give my soul, time and even have put my relationship in jeopardy for the dedication and love i had for the job. This was really depressing to me but due to my injury..i felt more depressed for my injury rather than my job loss.
Upon recovering, i have started on my job hunt and thank god i have a very supportive spouse and family to back me up, financially, emotionally and physically for this. After a series of job turn down, i finally landed a job which i never thought will change my life. I will explain bout the job in my next post as this post is purely on my slip disc.
I was happy with my current job, until one fine day, another minor incident, caused my slip disc pain to surface. This time it was more painful than before as i am not even able to sit. Previously, i couldnt walk but i could sit and lie down, but this time, it was more painful as i cant even sit or stand or lie down, all i could do was lie on my back side ways.It was a horrifying nitemare to me till to day as i think bout it.
I was re-admitted again in hospital, the same medical centre, this time longer than expected. The doctor still suggests for conservative management, rather than surgery. He even suggested to go on alternative treatment. Thank God, HE have spoken to me through various people to indicate not to opt for operation.
My line manager was very supportive and so was my business manager and project manager. They have advised me to go for alternative treatment. ZigZag's close friend recommended a famous therapeutic at Seremban, Oakland Industrial area. I went to him, Chan Kam Weng alternative treatment.
First look at my MRI scan, he told me it will take time to recover but the bright side is, i will be able to go back to my lifestyle once i have fully recovered. Having said that, i started my treatment. Initially he only applied an oil and patch, to let the inflammation subside. He also told me to stop the modern medicines as it is made of painkillers and not good for the kidneys. I went to him religiously, 3 times a week (though his treatment was pricey), i can see positive results. Within a month, i was able to sit and sleep peacefully at night. I decided to return to work. Only manage to go to work for the first 2 weeks, the old pain came shooting down,even worst, the following week. When i met Mr Chan, he told me it was due to overstrainin and i am not suppose to over strain the muscles.
I never once thought, alternative treatment was good and have lasting results but my experience have thought me that never underestimate or judge without giving a shot of trying. I have been going for treatment and serious of painful moments until i was recovering. One thing, you have to be"pantang" when you are on alternative treatment. You are not suppose to consume anything made of coconut, cooling for the body- like barly or soya been, anything sour- curries,mango and most importantly no tea, any sorts of tea. Its been more than 4 month now i havent touched all these things, and i do feel better each day. Now i have recovered so much that i can sit, walk and normal chores except bending or squating. According to Mr Chan, once i am able to squat or bend, then i am fully recovered. To make my muscles strong, Mr Chan have given me herbs to boil and drink, it is so bitter that you can cough it out or vomit it, but the outcome is good, after a day of consuming the drink, you can see the changes in the muscles. More stronger and less pain. I am still due one more pack to drink.
Hopefully i will be able to recover and get back to my life soon. Its been month, i have not gone out, see the world and etc etc...but most importantly, my oppurtunity to became a mother, perhaps might happen as Mr Chan told me there is a bright future if i am fully recovered to carry a child. But all this will take time, effort and most importantly good rest.
Also, the most important person i should mention here is GOD. Without HIM, all these are not possible and more over, HE has better plans for me. HE is the Divine Physician who is strengthening me day by day.
Praise the LORD!!!! AMEN
This year has not been a good fruitful year to me.BUT its has made me more WISER and grow in FAITH
It all started in March, with my first minor injury,which cause my spinal cord to inflame. I was diagonosed as slip disc at L4/L5. The specialist at a leading medical centre near my town, suggests that i go for either conservative treatment or for a surgery. However, the surgery would be a 50/50 chance of paralysing and it would be risky and should be kept as last resort. Thus, we went on for the conservative treatment. However, the specialist informed that i would not be able to carry on a normal lifestyle. I should not bend, should not carry heavy things, should not walk too long, sit too long...and list goes on..but the most painful bitter statement was ability to carry a child in the womb ( i am not fit to be pregnant). This is a complete shocker as it has not even been a year after my wedding. There goes our chance to have our offsprings.
I recovered completely within 3 months, however, i lost my job at the cable tv station as result of economic slowdown and since i was still on medical leave, i was forced to leave a.k.a retrenchement. The truth came to me towards later stage that i was not even schedule for the retrenchement but was chosen due to office dirty politics. Well i was first disturbed and upset over it, as justice was not served and this was totally not fair to me. I have worked hard and regardless the manpower shortage period, i have give my soul, time and even have put my relationship in jeopardy for the dedication and love i had for the job. This was really depressing to me but due to my injury..i felt more depressed for my injury rather than my job loss.
Upon recovering, i have started on my job hunt and thank god i have a very supportive spouse and family to back me up, financially, emotionally and physically for this. After a series of job turn down, i finally landed a job which i never thought will change my life. I will explain bout the job in my next post as this post is purely on my slip disc.
I was happy with my current job, until one fine day, another minor incident, caused my slip disc pain to surface. This time it was more painful than before as i am not even able to sit. Previously, i couldnt walk but i could sit and lie down, but this time, it was more painful as i cant even sit or stand or lie down, all i could do was lie on my back side ways.It was a horrifying nitemare to me till to day as i think bout it.
I was re-admitted again in hospital, the same medical centre, this time longer than expected. The doctor still suggests for conservative management, rather than surgery. He even suggested to go on alternative treatment. Thank God, HE have spoken to me through various people to indicate not to opt for operation.
My line manager was very supportive and so was my business manager and project manager. They have advised me to go for alternative treatment. ZigZag's close friend recommended a famous therapeutic at Seremban, Oakland Industrial area. I went to him, Chan Kam Weng alternative treatment.
First look at my MRI scan, he told me it will take time to recover but the bright side is, i will be able to go back to my lifestyle once i have fully recovered. Having said that, i started my treatment. Initially he only applied an oil and patch, to let the inflammation subside. He also told me to stop the modern medicines as it is made of painkillers and not good for the kidneys. I went to him religiously, 3 times a week (though his treatment was pricey), i can see positive results. Within a month, i was able to sit and sleep peacefully at night. I decided to return to work. Only manage to go to work for the first 2 weeks, the old pain came shooting down,even worst, the following week. When i met Mr Chan, he told me it was due to overstrainin and i am not suppose to over strain the muscles.
I never once thought, alternative treatment was good and have lasting results but my experience have thought me that never underestimate or judge without giving a shot of trying. I have been going for treatment and serious of painful moments until i was recovering. One thing, you have to be"pantang" when you are on alternative treatment. You are not suppose to consume anything made of coconut, cooling for the body- like barly or soya been, anything sour- curries,mango and most importantly no tea, any sorts of tea. Its been more than 4 month now i havent touched all these things, and i do feel better each day. Now i have recovered so much that i can sit, walk and normal chores except bending or squating. According to Mr Chan, once i am able to squat or bend, then i am fully recovered. To make my muscles strong, Mr Chan have given me herbs to boil and drink, it is so bitter that you can cough it out or vomit it, but the outcome is good, after a day of consuming the drink, you can see the changes in the muscles. More stronger and less pain. I am still due one more pack to drink.
Hopefully i will be able to recover and get back to my life soon. Its been month, i have not gone out, see the world and etc etc...but most importantly, my oppurtunity to became a mother, perhaps might happen as Mr Chan told me there is a bright future if i am fully recovered to carry a child. But all this will take time, effort and most importantly good rest.
Also, the most important person i should mention here is GOD. Without HIM, all these are not possible and more over, HE has better plans for me. HE is the Divine Physician who is strengthening me day by day.
Praise the LORD!!!! AMEN
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